All Change
I don't really know where to start with this one. A lot's happened since I last posted. It's gone very badly again and I've had to face up to the fact that I may not be cut out to play full time. The last 10 days of July and the first week of August were big losers and after paying myself, the bankroll was left in an even worse state than at the beginning of July.
It dropped under £1k for the first time in almost 2 years and I had to face going bust as a real possibility. I'd got about £2k of savings taken from poker winnings tucked away but I didn't want to touch it - there would be no reason to assume that I wouldn't loose that too.
I always left myself a safety net of going back to the career I was in back in April and I got a phone call from them saying I could start back in mid-September. So that's what I'm going to be doing.
I've got pretty mixed emotions about it all. Obviously, I'm gutted to have failed at the full time poker lark. I was also in the process of starting up a business with a friend importing wine from France, which I may not be able to be very involved with if I go back to work, and that's a big disappointment as I was really looking forward to it. On the other hand, it's going to be such a relief knowing that I'll have a regular salary coming in and then I can concentrate on growing the bankroll back and starting to enjoy playing poker again. Additionally, I'm quite excited about going back to work. It was always a career path that I was interested in so maybe all is not lost.
In the meantime I've just got to try not to go bust and hopefully clock up enough rakeback to be able to see me through to the first pay check.
I can't be bothered to delve deeply into the reasons for my failure at this point, but largely it's down to not being able to bring my A-game to the table for 40+ hours a week and not being able to handle the pressure of relying on poker for 100% of my income. I also think that the games on Crypto are harder than they use to be and I was concentrating too much on racking up the MPP/rakeback and not enough on making good decisions.
Here's to the future...
It dropped under £1k for the first time in almost 2 years and I had to face going bust as a real possibility. I'd got about £2k of savings taken from poker winnings tucked away but I didn't want to touch it - there would be no reason to assume that I wouldn't loose that too.
I always left myself a safety net of going back to the career I was in back in April and I got a phone call from them saying I could start back in mid-September. So that's what I'm going to be doing.
I've got pretty mixed emotions about it all. Obviously, I'm gutted to have failed at the full time poker lark. I was also in the process of starting up a business with a friend importing wine from France, which I may not be able to be very involved with if I go back to work, and that's a big disappointment as I was really looking forward to it. On the other hand, it's going to be such a relief knowing that I'll have a regular salary coming in and then I can concentrate on growing the bankroll back and starting to enjoy playing poker again. Additionally, I'm quite excited about going back to work. It was always a career path that I was interested in so maybe all is not lost.
In the meantime I've just got to try not to go bust and hopefully clock up enough rakeback to be able to see me through to the first pay check.
I can't be bothered to delve deeply into the reasons for my failure at this point, but largely it's down to not being able to bring my A-game to the table for 40+ hours a week and not being able to handle the pressure of relying on poker for 100% of my income. I also think that the games on Crypto are harder than they use to be and I was concentrating too much on racking up the MPP/rakeback and not enough on making good decisions.
Here's to the future...
posted by Pinky @ 11:31 AM
1 Comments:
At 2:29 PM,
AlCantHang said…
Well that blows. I'm sure you'll bounce back and even some of the top players in the world have had to take a step back.
Build it back up and go enjoy the game again.
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